Trust and Choices

I have done something extremely stupid.

By attempting to achieve something that has always been there, I have pushed away the person that I have grown to care about more than... anyone really. I have always said that independence is a virtue; one shouldn't have to rely on another to bring forth happiness. But now that I have had time to think things through, I realize that I am absolutely miserable. Yet, I brought this upon myself. All the arguing, the complaints... they were my fault.

Mine.

I can't look back since the damage was already done. There is no way I could ever ask for things to be as they were. I made some serious mistakes... and inflicted this pain. I caused all the tears that have been shed these past few days... and though I may want to turn back time, I cannot expect anything less than my own ridicule.

Today I started my survey portion of my research project and was accepted into the Honors program. And yet, I feel more alone than ever.