In view of recent events, I know that I have humiliated myself beyond the natural recognition of what one would consider 'proper behavior'. Never in my life have I been been so thoroughly embarassed, never have I been so ashamed of my actions... and my intentions. I have lost the one person I have counted on for the past two years... but now, I have accepted the fact. I know that I can move on, and G- willing, I can perhaps someday be happy again.
I had what I would consider my most meaningful relationship thwarted by my own lack of
understanding of others needs. This was in no way this person's fault... she merely lacked the same feelings for me as I had for her. Some people are simply not meant to be... and not all love is returned in kind. I have learnt to accept that. I will no longer beg for something that I cannot have... nor will I ask for her to try when all that will happen is that I will end up even more hurt
than I am now.
For now, I please ask everyone to give me time. To be blunt, I do not need a relationship, nor do I want one. I am in a state of transition... I realize that my feelings for this one person were the purest feelings I could ever feel... and yet, they were not appreciated. Ergo, I have to move on. Maybe one day, when things are different, I will be able to find myself involved in other meaningful relationships... but not any time soon. All I really want are friends... I can offer friendship, but nothing more than that.
I am terribly sorry to the people I have hurt as a result of this...
I had what I would consider my most meaningful relationship thwarted by my own lack of
understanding of others needs. This was in no way this person's fault... she merely lacked the same feelings for me as I had for her. Some people are simply not meant to be... and not all love is returned in kind. I have learnt to accept that. I will no longer beg for something that I cannot have... nor will I ask for her to try when all that will happen is that I will end up even more hurt
than I am now.
For now, I please ask everyone to give me time. To be blunt, I do not need a relationship, nor do I want one. I am in a state of transition... I realize that my feelings for this one person were the purest feelings I could ever feel... and yet, they were not appreciated. Ergo, I have to move on. Maybe one day, when things are different, I will be able to find myself involved in other meaningful relationships... but not any time soon. All I really want are friends... I can offer friendship, but nothing more than that.
I am terribly sorry to the people I have hurt as a result of this...
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